The wrong ones always hold my heart
and have created me into a monster who either loves too much or does not love at all
the ones who deserve that love are always left behind
as they try to catch up to the train which leads the way to the key which opens an entirely new world of happiness
see when I give people my all,
I give them my all…
and there is no turning back
I remember a time when I didn’t love you
when I thought you did not love me either
and that was okay
because in my eyes “you were nobodies possession”
your heart contained many chambers
each one playing games every hour
taunting anyone it its path.
I was like you, and I became more like you
the first time you broke my heart
But, I was wrong and this time you fell for my eyes
you gave me your full and undivided attention
your arms were open
and I let myself fall.
and the ride was short but amazing
I never felt so much in such a small amount of time
but of course, nothing beautiful in my life lasts for long
and you disappeared
and looking at you hurt my soul
and my broken heart broke once more
if that is even possible
you came back into my life on a sunday morning
sending me healing powers down to the bone
explaining yourself and expressing yourself
which you never did
oh stupid girl,
oh stupid stupid girl
haven’t you already learned that burned out flames can never reignite
now, you only held out one arm and I fell almost touching the floor
my eyes completely in focus on the dead grass beneath us…
but i didn’t care
I would plant flowers,
I would bring new soil
I would build a garden of what once was just a beautiful vibrant green patch of grass
it would be better then before.
I knew what to do, and exactly how to do it.
this time would be different.
The spring began to warm up my skin
as we laid down on a hill at the top of the city
the sun hitting my face
you kissed my nose
you held me with both arms and a last I was at peace!
nothing could ruin us, or this moment
nothing could ever hurt me anymore
I had you…
I lay there in silent and slowly drifted off into a sleep
we fell asleep
seemed like an eternity
and we were in a world where no one could touch us
nothing could harm us
it was our forever
But obviously we woke up.
and we slowly rolled down the hill
slowly becoming farther apart
I ran to your side and
I linked on to your arms
I wasn’t going anywhere
but it didn’t feel the same
How could a second change so much
STOP BEING AFRAID AND LOOK AT ME
STOP RUNNING AWAY AND SIT WITH ME
STOP LEAVING ME SO YOU WONT GET HURT
close your eyes and remember my face
remember my laugh
remember our first night
remember the night by the water
our first fight
and the snow flakes tracing our foot steps in the winter
remember the feeling you got when you kissed me for the first time
continue to be the person I never thought you’d be
be my possession
don’t leave me
but you left me
you left me…
my heart hurts more than ever
this time i’m sure its goodbye
because every part of my body FEELS right now
and all I can think about is who’s eyes you are looking at right now
who’s skin do you wish was touching yours right now
who’s face do you picture when you first wake up
when did everything change?
when did we begin to fade?
I thought we were on the same page!!
I THOUGHT WE WERE ON THE SAME PAGE
I thought we were on the same page…
Bye just let it go
just let it go…
because nothing is the same
I promise to love you:
at 6 am when you’re waking
to go to work, to school, or whatever
road life takes you on;
and when you didn’t sleep well,
your hair is a mess
and your eyes are sleepy.
at 8 am when we say goodbye
for the day and you’re rushing
out the door with a cup
of black coffee, after finishing
a morning cigarette
when your lips taste like
caffeine and nicotine.
at 3 pm when you’re exhausted
from the day and people have
worn you out and you feel like
sighing, crying, and falling asleep
and escaping in afternoon dreams.
I will kiss your forehead,
and wrap myself in your arms.
at 10 pm when you’re heading to bed,
even though you won’t sleep for hours
and you’ll flip through all the channels
tired of dismal newscasts and re-runs.
Especially when we become a human knot
wrapped up in sheets and kisses
at 3 am when loneliness and sadness
do not destroy you, but consume you
and when you weep without an explanation
I’ll kiss your lips, softly and
tell you you’re the absolute best.
When we talk about life
and why winter kills the flowers.
I will love you when you grow old,
I will love you even after that
I will love you if I’m no longer here
I will love you
I will love you
and I will love you.